~Alone~

Sometimes, I feel left out.  People see beauty in things where my reasonable mind is going, “HELP.  WHY WOULD SOMEONE DO THAT?”  Sometimes, I feel alone, because what I see as beautiful is neglected and laughed at.  Sometimes, I feel loved, because someone will take the time to look at something through my eyes.  Sometimes I feel empty, because my world is full of grays.  Sometimes, I feel musical, because my world has never been so bright before.  Sometimes, I wish I wasn’t me, because me is a very had thing to be.

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I like to hide behind something.  I don’t like to show who I really am, because sometimes that causes too much pain.  I’m considered a very honest person, but I’m not honest with myself.  I’m thought of as a bubbly personality, but inside I’m very flat.  People tell me I’m cute, they say I make them laugh, and they move on with their lives, while I stay where I am.  Alone.

But I’ve realized that only when you’re alone can you really appreciate life.  Life with someone isn’t the same as life by yourself.  When you have someone to lean on, you don’t learn half as well, listen quite as well, or make your own decisions.  When you’re alone, you find that you really are never alone.  You find that you aren’t the person you want to be, but there’s only one way to become that person.

And so?  You have a choice.  Do you want to drowned out the fact that you aren’t happy with yourself by having other people be happy in you, or do you want to take the rocky road and become the best you you can be?

The only way you can become the person you want to be is by being alone…And yet, you aren’t alone.  The only way you can become the person that loves unconditionally, waits patiently, laughs merrily, and keeps plodding along is by looking past yourself, and looking above.  Not in your own strength can you become anything worth while.

I should know.  I’ve tried.

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Not with the help of a million followers, a dozen fans, or a couple of friends can you become the person you want to be.

I should know.  I’ve tried.

The only way you can become the person you were created to be is by stopping, and turning your eyes away from yourself.  You must look above, and acknowledge you weakness.  Because, dear friend, in you weakness, God’s strength can come through you. If you want to be a lamp, you must first have Someone light you.

Once upon a time, there actually were people who were exactly as they were created to be.  But they weren’t happy with that.  And so?  They brought a lot of grief into this sin-sick world.  They themselves brought sin, and now we are sinners because of them.  Imagine their grief.  Actually, don’t do that, that would be pretty painful.

The only way that God could save his children was by sending His Son to be a human (Though He still was God), and die a human death.  When you feel alone, neglected, slighted…Remember how Christ must have felt.  He showed people He was God by His miracles, and yet, they didn’t believe Him.  He saw beauty in everything, even the deformed leper, while everyone else only saw dirtiness.  Christ saw beauty in everything.  Imagine how discouraging it would be for people to constantly remark on how different He was.

You aren’t alone.  Anything, and I mean ANYTHING, you experience in this life, Christ has experienced it in some way.  And then He was crucified for you.  For you, the person that feels alone.  The person who just can’t do it anymore.  The person who hides their real self.  The person who isn’t loved.  The person who is tired.  Whatever your struggles, Christ hasn’t left you alone.  He’s here, next to you now.

To really know Christ, to really understand how much He cares, you need to be alone.  You need to be weak.  In order for Christ to save you, you must be lost.  The Physician didn’t come to heal the well, He came to heal the sick.

And that, my friend, should bring you hope.  It should bring you God’s hope.

~~Amie~~

P.S. I apologize Cam isn’t writing today, but I felt that this needed to be posted, and well…It doesn’t really go with Cam’s character.

 

30 thoughts on “~Alone~

  1. Wow, Amie. This was a great post. Thank you for sharing your heart. It’s so easy for me, also, to feel alone and left out. Especially living in a whole different country than most of my friends. But this post has given me a new perspective! Praise God!!! 😀 Thank you. ❤ 🙂

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  2. This post is such a blessing. I’m so glad you decided to write this post instead. To God be the glory!

    Ephesians 5:17-21
    17 Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is.

    18 And be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with the Spirit;

    19 Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;

    20 Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;

    21 Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.

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